Tuesday, July 1, 2008

I Miss You Daddy

Some of you may have wondered why I haven't been posting this week.
This past Sunday, my Daddy passed away very suddenly at the age of 62. 2 weeks before my birthday and three months before the wedding. As you can imagine Mommy and I are devastated and life has pretty much come to a halt.
My Daddy often read my blog, to keep up with my ideas. He loved hearing about the wedding and was SO involved. You know, it's funny....Daddy came with Mommy and I when we went dress shopping. He saw me in my dress and my veil and had tears in his eyes. He will be buried in the tie that he would have worn to walk me down the aisle....and that is exactly what he would have wanted. I'll miss you Daddy, you know that you meant more to me than I could have ever expressed. When I feel that gust of wind blow my dress and my veil around on my wedding day, I'll know that you are there.
I don't know when I will be back to posting, maybe some time next week. So much thanks goes out to my friends and Chris, who have made this time in my life somewhat bearable.

99 comments:

HappyAmy said...

My deepest condolences to you and your entire family. Your father sounds like he was a wonderful person and I enjoyed seeing your earlier posts about your family. I cannot imagine how you are doing, but know that thoughts and prayers are being sent your way from California.

rjd2123 said...

Oh, sweetie. I absolutely don't know you, I'm only a reader of your lovely blog, but my heart goes out to you for your terrible loss. Stay strong, and just know that your readers are thinking about you.

*Michelle said...

I don't even know you, but as a bride-to-be with a not-so-young Dad, my heart aches for you. I don't know anything about your religious beliefs, but take some tiny amount of comfort in knowing that others (myself included) have you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.

J & E said...

I am so sorry. So many of us are thinking about you.

Cassandra said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss, I can't imagine how devastating it has been for you and your family. I don't know you, but just know that you and your loved ones are in my thoughts and prayers.

Golightly said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. I'm glad he was able to see you in your dress - thats a comforting thought. Take all the time you need and take care of yourself, you have such a lovely spirit.

Melissa DiStefano said...

Oh Jessica! I am so so so sorry! You dad sounds like such an incredible spirit! I know he'll be with you on your walk through life always!

Please know that your in my thoughts and prayers! I'll be sure to light a candle for you at church.

These little things may not help you, but I hope you find peace knowing you are being prayed about. I hope as time goes by you mind turns to the fun and happy times you had with your Daddy.

With love,

Melissa

irishprncss84 said...

My heart sank when I read your post. I've come to love your blog and look forward to reading it each day. I've been frequenting it and wondering where you've been and never in my dreams did I imagine to hear about such a tragic loss. This goes to show that life is precious and you need to value each moment spent with loved ones. My deepest sympathy is with you and your family during this time that is supposed to be spent so joyous...

Pandesaldreamer said...

I just wanted to give you my condolences. I am a faithful reader of yours and when I just read the news, my eyes started to well up. My prayers are with you and your family.

Stella Event Design said...

I'm so sorry...you and your family will be in my prayers for strength during this time.

Kate said...

I am so sorry to hear this! I will keep you in my prayers. Hang in there! ::big hugs::

Etiquettely Correct said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Please know that people will be praying for you, even though you may not know them. I know your Daddy must have been so very proud of you. He will no doubt be smiling down on you on your wedding day.

ami @ elizabeth anne designs said...

oh no. i wish there was anything that i could say, but of course there isn't. i can't even imagine the hurt, but please know that we are thinking of you. ANYTHING that you need, please just ask, we are here for you.

Camerin C said...

I started keeping track of your blog through Nicole Green (shared photographer!). I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your dad. You and your mother are in my prayers at this time.

budgetsavvybride said...

My heart aches for you and your family... I can't imagine what you are going through, but I along with all these other are praying for you during this time. It seems like you really cherished the time you had with your father. It really puts some things in perspective for all of us. Stay strong and take some comfort in knowing that your readers are thinking and praying for you.

Linda said...

My condolences to you and your family. My thoughts are with you at this time. I'll be here when you are ready to return to blogging.

rebekah @ elizabeth anne designs said...

Oh Jessica. I am so sorry. I will keep you and your mother in my prayers.

Nicole said...

oh my...i am so sorry for your loss of your father..and esp. right before your wedding. I don't know you personally but what I do know is that you appear/come across to be happy/smart/strong lady! Your Father will be there on your big day! Your posts will be missed...come back to all of us when you are ready...

Sacha said...

Oh Sweet...
I'm so sorry to hear of your losss..my heart and prayers are with you at this time

if you need to chat ...

natalie said...

Jessica- I am so sorry. That's wonderful that you have already realized that he will be there with you on your wedding day, even if its just his spirit. You and your family are in my thoughts.

Nikki said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Julia said...

I'm so sorry, Jessica. I lurk here often but rarely comment, yet my heart breaks for you. What a nightmare---hang in there and know many of us are pulling for you !

Jenna said...

Oh Jessica, he'll be with you watching you walk down the aisle!

Lara Casey said...

Wow, I am so sorry to hear this incredibly sad news. I will be saying prayers for you daily as you go through this difficult time.

shannon said...

Jessica my condolences for you and your mother. That's awesome he was able to see you in your gown and I'm sure he'll be with you on your wedding day!

P.S. I love this... said...

Oh my, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. My prayers are with you and your family.

Veronica said...

I'm so sorry... I can only imagine what you must be going through. I wish I had something of value to tell you. I'm so sorry for your loss.

aletha @ pearls events said...

Jessica,
I am so sorry to hear this. My deepest condolences to you and your family. I will keep you and yours in my prayers.

Fabuluxe Events, Inc. said...

Hi sweetheart, I just wanted to let you know that you and yours are in my prayers. I am so sorry for your loss. I absolutely love your resolve and your adoration of your father. God bless you.

Lesley said...

Although I don't know you personally, as a dedicated reader of your blog and fellow DG I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. My heart breaks for you and your family. Be thankful for the memories you have and rely on the support of your friends and fiance. ItB.

Blush Paperie said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you are going through. We will all have you in our thoughts.

Jessica Ralph said...

Jess, I've been checking in on your blog and it's been unlike you to not do daily posts. It was shocking to read your latest one. My father passed away when I was 14 and it's been hard at times to "cope" with knowing that my father won't physically be there to witness and be a part of my treasured wedding day. We were very close. However, he will be there in spirit - undoubtedly...as will your father. Sending you heartfelt hugs.

Jessica Ralph said...

Jess, I've been checking in on your blog and it's been unlike you to not do daily posts. It was shocking to read your latest one. My father passed away when I was 14 and it's been hard at times to "cope" with knowing that my father won't physically be there to witness and be a part of my treasured day. However, he will be there in spirit - undoubtedly...as will your father. Sending you heartfelt hugs.

Angie said...

My sincerest condolences. I'm so sorry to hear about your father.

style-ish said...

oh, I am so sorry to hear this. My thoughts go out to you and your family.

nicole green said...

jessica you and your family will continue to be in my thoughts. i am so sorry to hear about your loss. :(

Inspired Events By Nycia said...

I'm so sorry Jessica!! My prayers go out to you & your family. I wish you peace of mind during this time...

Tara said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences and thoughts go out to you and your family. My heart sank as I read your post, what a hard time this must truly be for you. ::hugs:: from chicago

Darci said...

I am so profoundly sorry for your loss. I will keep holding you and your Mom in my thoughts...hang in there.

tina said...

I am so very sorry to hear this news. I am speechless. I will pray for you and your family.

Shelby O'Connell said...

My heart goes out to you. Like others have mentioned, I don't know you but read your blog from time to time. I am so sorry for your loss and I know there are no words that can take your pain away. I'm a "daddy's girl" myself and I have tears in my eyes just reading your post. You have my deepest sympathy.

Miss G said...

Jessica, there are tears rolling down my cheeks. I am so sorry. I do not understand things such as this. No one can. I do believe that God truly cares for you and your entire family during this time. I pray that He will surround you with comfort, with peace, with hope and with the return of joy and laughter at the right time. You will continue to be in my prayers. What a wonderful thing that your father saw you in your dress and y'all got to experience that moment together! Kelly

kp said...

I'm so sorry. I will be thinking and praying for you.

Haselwand said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how hard these past few days have been for you. Just know that you and your mother are in our thoughts.

I know I haven't commented much, but from one Indiana bride to another if I can help in anyway, don't hesitate to ask!

Eve said...

Again, I am so incredibly sorry. I hope you and your mom are able to find strength in one another. May time help you heal from this tragedy. Let us know if there is anything you need.

Kate said...

I have never posted here or on any other blog, but I check yours daily and wanted you to know how sorry I am and how much I feel for you during this time. Take care of yourself and your mom.

Guilty Secret said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Big hugs for you, sweetie.

Stacy said...

Thoughts & prayers to you & your family from a stranger in Fishers, IN.

mnk ♥ said...

I just stumbled upon your blog for the first time, and was devastated for you and your most recent post. I'm praying for you and can't imagine your circumstances right now. My heart goes out to you and I am thinking about you and your family during this awful, tragic time. Keep your chin up--you're absolutely right, your daddy will be right there with you when you glide down that aisle!

Somewhat Southern Prep said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. We're all keeping you close to our hearts.

Jessica said...

I'm so sorry to hear this, I hope you're coping well in this time of loss.

My deepest sympathies to you and know my thoughts and prayers are going your way.

Sarah said...

I'm so so sorry for your loss. I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers at such a difficult time.

Miss G said...

Jessica, I linked to you on my blog and this is from my grandma: how very sad. We will remember her in our prayers. Sweetie (We call her Sweetie) Kelly

Amy Grace said...

I linked to your blog from Aletha's and just wanted to drop a comment and let you know that I was thinking about you. I don't even know you (as I see many readers say), but what an unbelievable time for this to happen. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

lil' Miss Cupcake said...

I am so sorry to hear about your father. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

ley said...

Oh, god, love- I am so sorry. Like alot of other commentors, I'm just a reader, not an acquaintance, but I still feel so deeply for you. My wedding is only three weeks away and I couldn't imagine going through that. With love and prayers, I hope your family will find peace.

ksenija said...

i am very, very sorry to hear this devastating news. what you wrote about your Daddy is heartfelt & truly beautiful. my sincerest condolences to you & your family during this time.

leigh041982 said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Kelly said...

I'm so sorry to hear this news! Like many other of the comments, my heart sank when I read this post. Be strong.

llove said...

oh fro - i am so sorry about your dad. i love you so much, friend, and am here for you if you need me. my family's thoughts and prayers are with you.

i love you
lindsey

Kimberly said...

I am so sorry Jessica - My heart sank when I read your post. I lost my mother in 1999 and I know the pain of losing a parent. Look to your fiancé, friends and family in this time. You will get each other through this. You and the rest of your family in our prayers and thoughts. Take some time to be with your family and we will be right here when you are ready to come back!
Kimberly

Lepkugen said...

My heart goes out to you. I love that your Daddy read your blog, was with you shopping for your dress and he will be there silently for you on your wedding day and always. Take care and know that my thoughts are with you and your family.

122LOVESME said...

i am so sad for you. know that we are all thinking of you and praying for you.

Molly said...

My most sincere and deepest condolences to you and your family right now. I chocked up reading this and wish I could give you a giant hug.

As a fellow bride-to-be, I cannot imagine what you're going through right now. Know that you have a world of readers with my shoulders to cry on if you need it. xoxoxo

Jenni said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family...

Ms. Bliss said...

oh my heart just sank when I read this. I am so sorry to hear about your tremendous loss. Sending condolences and best wishes to you and your family.

Danz4bu said...

I just wanted to tell you that I love you so much! You have a been a great friend and sister to me. I wish there was something I could do or say, but the best I can do is tell you I love you and I'm here whatever you need.

Meredith

kdhsam said...

Jessica,

I am so sorry to read this sad news. My good friend Jennifer and I found your blog about 2 weeks ago (as Jennifer is newly engaged) and we have just enjoyed your site so much...we are so sad to hear of your father's untimely passing. I'll be praying for peace and comfort in your family. Thank God for your mom and wonderful, wonderful husband to be.

we love you from afar....Karen in NC

Erica said...

Such a tragedy. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. My heart goes out to you.

kal503 said...

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Ryan said...

so sorry for your loss. losing my dad was the hardest thing i've had to deal with. my prayers are with you.

rk

Chitown Bride said...

Oh, Jessica - My deepest condolences to you and your family. My heart goes out to you!

Deanna said...

Deepest condolences to you and your mother. You are both in my prayers!

michelejustmarry said...

My greatest sympathies go out to you and your family. I went through the same experience last November with my Dad who passed away suddenly as well. My heart breaks to think of how you must be handling this as your wedding day fast approaches. You will find out what amazing strength you have. This will get you through the coming months and you will eventually begin to smile and laugh again. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help in the wedding area or offer advice of what to do when somebody passes. It is a shocking amount of tasks that surround somebody passing and all you really want to do is grieve. Many thoughts and prayers!

Chere Amie said...

Oh dear. I've been off of the blogging world and on vacation this week, so I am sorry I haven't posted sooner. I am definitely thinking of you and your family. You are in our prayers.

kkelley41097 said...

I am so sorry for your loss. You don't know me, I'm a friend of Nicole Green. But, I will be praying for you and your family.

Spottswood Photography said...

I am so sorry for your loss. May Gods strength and the memories you keep close to your heart help you through this difficult time.

Love,
Sarah

kawania said...

Jessica, I know what you are going through right now must absolutely suck. And this thought may not help right now, but know that his heart and his spirit will always be with you.

Your daddy sounds like he was an incredible blessing with a wonderful spirit, and you will never lose that.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you right now, on your wedding day and for years to come.

Love & Soul Always, Kay

Prep-E Girl said...

I am so sorry to hear that your dear father passed away. Please know you're in my thoughts.

-E

Sarah said...

Jessica
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please know we are all thinking about you in this hard time.

Jennifer said...

I came across your blog from Aletha over at Pearl's Events and I just wanted to offer my deepest sympathies. Stay strong and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

The New Mrs. S said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. I'm sure he was a very proud father and he will always be with you. Big hugs.

Lyndsy said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. It breaks my heart to hear about it and your words and strength in this post were beautiful and gave me goosebumps. He will be there with you in spirit and watching for up above. I wish you and your family the deepest heartfelt sympathies.

sarah said...

Jessica - I am so so so sorry for your loss. Like so many others, my heart sank when I read your post ... I hope it helps, if only a tiny bit to know that so many are keeping you and your family in our prayers.

I can't imagine what you're going through but I did feel a tiny piece of your pain earlier this week when my dad was diagnosed with cancer (on my birthday). We're still waiting to find out all the details but your strength and courage have been a true inspiration to me. Stay strong -- we're all praying for you.

*big hug*

Kate said...

my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

el said...

Jessica, First time blogging but your thoughts about your Dad were very touching. We were so saddened to hear that tragic news but we have you and your MOM always in our prayers. I wish I could explain the why but it is out of our hands.Our hearts go out to you. I just want you to know we are so happy you will be joining our family and if there is anything we can do PLEASE let us know.Our deepest sympathy.
Love,Chris's MOM/DAD

Candice said...

Although I don't know you and am just a reader of your blog, my deepest condolences go out to you and your family.
I know there is nothing that can be said to take away the pain... The pain can only ease over time.

My father passed away suddenly two years ago, at the age of 57, right before my brother's wedding. It was a tough time for all... but now is the time to take solace and find strength in your family and friends.

There will be little things that you can do on your wedding day in remembrance of him... Save him a seat in the front row... Wrap your bouquet in one of his old handkerchiefs or adorn it with a cufflink... Or, sew a piece of one of his ties on the inside of your dress... That way, he will still be with you while you walk down the aisle.
There are little things that you can do EVERYDAY to remember him... I leave the front porch light on so that he can find his way home every night.

Am hoping these little things will help you get through this terrible time.

Canned Goods said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Melissa's Greetings said...

I am so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you and your family.

Baby K said...

I'm so very very sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.

who-dey said...

I miss you babe, I grew so much closer to you, if that was possible these past 8 days. I appreciated every minute of it and didn't mind doing one thing for you and your mom. I'm just glad I can be here to help. I will be there for a shoulder to cry on or a hand to do something for you and your mom, soon to be my mom too :)
I love you and will miss your dad so much. Like we've said he will be there with us forever, he'll be that wind blowing through the windows when we hug or that shooting star across the night sky while watching the fireworks together. He'll be there. I love you and can't wait to hold you in my arms again the next chance I get.
love you and miss you,
Christopher

Lucky Designs said...

I am so sorry for your loss Jessica. My condolences to you and your family.

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Bobbi said...

Oh Jessica... I don't even know what to say. I just can't imagine.

PLEASE let me know if there's anything I can do :(

Love,

~Bobbi

Clair said...

my thoughts are with you during this hard time.... i can't even imagine what you are going through, but just know he will still be there with you on your wedding day.

miss bossy said...

I'm so sorry for your loss! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers!

Events by Evonne, LLC said...

I am so sorry for your loss... my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

saundra, event engineer said...

Jess, I am so, so, so sorry to hear of your loss. I am daddy's little girl (the only one) and can't imagine what you are going through. He will be there, in spirit and smiling with you. Again, if I can send strength to you...it's coming your way. And tissues. You'll need it on your big day.

If there is anything I can do (being closer than most) please let me know.

notsojenny said...

okay, so i was looking through your site some more and came across this. i am so sorry for your loss. i know how you feel, when my dad passed away suddenly he was only 61. i hope you've been able to take comfort in the knowing that your father got to be with you through everything he did.
i would say i hope you're feeling better about it, but i know how it goes. and while it'll never fully sinks in it's part of your identity now and someday you'll accept that. it's okay to push that off as long as you want.
enjoy our wedding day knowing he's right there with you.